Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Awake at 4:21 in the Morning

I'm awake at the gods awful early hour of 4:21 (too bad it's not 4:20, smoke 'em if you got 'em!) and I'm following up on blogs I've been neglecting while handling the holiday mess. Mrs. G has an affliction that I can COMPLETELY appreciate. MMMMM, Johnny Depp. Something about a cute, scruffy, rather scrawny (and oddly somewhat buff), shaggy haired brunette with deep dark penetrating eyes (sounds like someone I know in Real Life) that just turns my knees to butter and gets my head a thinkin' about the naughtier (and funner, as my kids would say) things in life. Yum Yum.

Usually, I don't like Mariah. She's all right as a singer, she's cute to look at, however I think she over does it, tries to hard really. In this case, I'll make an exception. Enjoy my Christmas wish.

Monday, December 29, 2008

Where oh Where Have I Been?

It's the holiday season which means busy busy busy. And then more busy.

Baking, shopping, wrapping, cleaning, travelling, gifting, visiting. You know, all that craziness.

I got the bee in my bonnet that I would make homemade breads on top of doing homemade cookies. My in-laws benefited from this, my mom however did not. I was just so tired after getting home from the in-laws that I said "I'm going to bed" and then the next day there just wasn't the time. Oh, we did manage to forget the camera at my mom's house, not that we were actually USING it or anything though. I *think* Jason *might* have taken some pics of the kids as his sis' place, but don't quote me on that, at all.

We've had crazy weather around here. The week before Christmas it was record freezing temps and snow snow snow snow and then more snow. Over Christmas we had RAIN and record HIGH temps. Go figure.

Our van is crying for repairs, however we won't have the money until we get our income tax return some time in February is my guess. We don't drive much, especially now that all the holiday visiting is all done, so she *should* (knock on lots of wood and say lots of prayers) ok until then. We have one trip to see Katy at the end of January and that will be all. I may ask my sister to borrow her car for that trip just to feel safer.

We still haven't done our gifts for the kids. They are all wrapped and under the tree. We were going to do them this morning, however the only kid that is awake at 6 minutes to 10 in the morning is Izzy. They did go to bed pretty late last night. Even Jason is still asleep.

Lately, he has been letting me sleep in, which is really nice, but it totally throws my schedule off. Of coarse, just having him home all day, every day throws my schedule off. He is getting very upset with being home all the time. Apparently, the kids and I are a lot to handle all day every day. Uh, yeah, DUH on that one! Hehe. I love the man dearly, but he was definately meant to be at work. Stay at Home Dad he is not.

James sees the psychiatrist this afternoon. It's just a med check really. I'm going to ask the doc about applying for SSI and if he feels James would qualify. We applied last year, and between the fact that our old case managers left the agency we had been working with for the past couple of years and not having any recent workups of James and all of that, it was denied. The application didn't even have the most pressing issues listed on it as reasons for applying. It was a debacle all around. Now that we are in the more intensive therapy program, and with James seeing the psychiatrist regularly, we are going to reapply.

I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday season. I will be back to posting regularly now that the hulabaloo has died down. Prayers and blessings everyone.

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Thankful Thursday

I know I haven't posted this in at least a month. With the stuff that has gone on in the past couple of weeks, I have to wonder what there is to be thankful for. I know there IS stuff, but I wonder what to post here and what NOT to, ya know?

I'm thankful we are all healthy. We may all be getting over a pretty nasty cold, however none of us has cancer or is dying, as far as I know, so at least there is that.

I'm thankful we have a place to live and heat to keep it warm. It's a balmy 17 F out there right now, so a home and heat are good things to be thankful for. By the way, for you Canadian readers (or any who don't use the Farenheit measuring system) 32 F is 0 Celcius so that means that 17 is Negative something or the other to you.

I'm thankful we have food to feed us. Listening to children cry about being hungry and not being able to do anything about it does not appeal to me, so it's nice that I don't have that worry.

I'm thankful that even though it's much more modest than was originally planned, we were able to provide gifts for the kids to unwrap this holiday season. We didn't get Jason's bonus, but we were able to work it out to get them a few things each.

I'm thankful that Izzy is up and running around and acting the terror at the trying age of 2 1/2. When Izzy was 11 days old, he had an episode where he stopped breathing. He then did it again about 15 minutes later. He was rushed to the hospital, where he continued to do this through the night while in the PICU. Izzy was diagnosed with seizures, due to a bleed on his brain from the "trauma" (his head was ROUND as he didn't drop until he was pushed out, and the diameter was 14 1/2 inches) of his birth. His medication had to be increased at least once. He was on very heavy seizure meds until he was 9 months old. When we brought him to the hospital that night, we didn't know what was going on, we had to hope and believe that he would live, that they would fix our boy, but we didn't know that would happen. I have never seen Jason that distraught and worried in all of our life together up to then or since. It still hurts my heart to think of him, sitting in the hallway, while they tried to do a spinal tap on our tiny newly born baby and Jason crying and telling me "I don't want him to die, I just don't want him to die." I had to hope that he would be better because I just couldn't think of it otherwise. That was a very trying week, and I'll write about it all some other time. My point is this, while Izzy is a terror, getting in to things, running amok and creating absolute havoc, I am so thankful that he is here to do so.

OK, on that note, I'm done with this post for now. Prayers and blessings everyone.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Probed by Avitable via SciFi Dad

I'm playing along here. I said "interview me" so here are the "thought bending, mind probing" 5 questions that SciFi Dad came up with. By the way, he's funny and I recommend reading him regularly, hint hint Jason.

1. How often do you get google search hits from people looking for Cheerios?
I have no idea because my site counter doesn't tell me about google searches. I've thought about using one that does, but then I'm afraid I'd get sucked in by it all.

2. Share one of your experiences giving birth in haiku form.
I had to go look up the rules of a haiku poem, I admit it. Apparently it's 5-7-5. So here it goes.

Birth sees me induced
it always hurts and takes hours
when it's done, I'm glad

Not the greatest I admit, but hey, it follows the rules.

3. Have you ever been to the "thumbs down" next to the mitten?
I have never been out of the U.S. I have seen Canada from Sault St. Marie and I have seen Mexico from Arizona. I also have never seen an ocean in real life. I'm not well traveled.

4. Where would you move to if money and employment were no object?
Alaska or Australia. I think Australia is gorgeous, though the heat would get to me. Alaska has the perfect climate for me. Cold and more cold.

5. Are you really going to stay in and watch movies and order in Chinese on Christmas?
We've talked, and we may go out to the chinese buffet place in town we really like, other than that, yes, we really are going to sit at home and watch movies and eat chinese food. We do so much travelling AFTER Christmas, it's our treat to ourselves. Oh, the kids get to open their stockings and ONE gift from under the tree.

Do you want to be part of it? Then follow these instructions:
1. Leave me a comment saying, "Interview me."
2. I will respond by emailing you five questions. I get to pick the questions.
3. You will update your blog with the answers to the questions.
4. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the same post.
5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.

Saturday, December 13, 2008

It's All Off

It all feels off right now, everything is what I mean. Jason was layed off from work, supposedly temporarily, though they can't say exactly WHEN he'll go back, on Friday the 5th. So he has been home every day since then. That certainly contributes to the feeling of "offness".

This past week I was HORRIDLY sick. I know it's a great excuse, unfortunately, it was TRUE. I HATE being sick. It sucks like nothing else. I have Jason to thank for that sickness as well. I didn't even kiss him and I still got sick! If I would have known I'd get sick anyway, I wouldn't have not kissed him. Yeah yeah, double negative and all that.

I couldn't breathe out of anything but my mouth. My lips got SO chapped from it too. I was sneezing and blowing my nose and just in absolute misery. Blech. I didn't feel like cooking, so the fam survived on either take out or boxed frozen crap. Either way, not what I would prefer to feed them.

I didn't talk to Jenn or Daisy much at all this week. With Jason being home every day, I took advantage and did a lot of sleeping. Oddly, that was a blessing. He does throw off my "usual" computer time during the day however. I'm used to getting up and turning on the comp and messaging on my regular boards and chatting with some friends and then getting to my housework and wrangling of the heathens. However, when I get up now, much too late in the day I might add because Jason is either super nice or just afraid of what might happen if he woke me, Jason is on the comp doing something with one of his games or something like that. Totally throws me off.

I love my husband dearly. I also really like him to have a job. Besides the obvious pay the bills reasons, there is the "get the hell out of my hair 5 days a week" reason. He is going stir crazy being home. He is finding out first hand how hard it is to keep the house clean and get things done with them running around like rabid puppies strung out on meth. Nice image huh?

I digress as usual. Today, he WASHED the bathroom ceiling. He needed something to do while I was ChaChaing and playing a game. He says he's going to paint it with the ceiling paint. I pointed out that I'd like the boys' room to be painted. We'll see how far that suggestion goes.

He's been helping out with craft time and the wrangling of the heathens. I told him to go out earlier today, spend some time alone, away from the house. He put me off. He said he'll go out on Monday. Um, ok. I have therapy at 1:30 so I certainly hope you are either home by then, or you can wait until after I get back.

I got a call on Friday letting me know that James is now in the more intensive therapy program. I know they do other stuff than "just" therapy, however I'm not quite sure WHAT that is yet. We missed his psychiatrist appt at the beginning of the month. I thought that it was on the 4th, turns out it was on the 2nd. Oops. It's now rescheduled for the 29th. I'm going to ask him (the psychiatrist) for a full report on what he believes James' diagnosies are so that I can apply for SSI once again. The first time was an absolute flop. It turns out that at the time I applied, the agency we had receieved services from before was going through a huge staff change and the people who were in charge of our case before left the agency. That means that the forms for the application weren't filled out and turned back in. Well CRAP. That was most of my supporting evidence right there!

It turns out that the closest in depth physio/psycho analysis is about 3 hours from here. It takes place over the period of 3 days. Good lord. I have Larry looking for one closer. When I meet with the young lady on Monday to start the paperwork for the new program, I'll ask her about finding one closer. I don't mind driving an hour or so, but not 3 hours one way over a 3 day period. Ugh!

I'm hoping next week is a little less "off". I'll try to be more faithful to my blog. I still have Thanksgiving pics to post, along with the pumpkin cupcakes from last week. Prayers and blessings everyone. I hope your week is filled with joy and happiness.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Honest Scrap Tagged


Well, Sophie has gone and done it now! She tagged me. I'm supposed to list off 10 Random Things that are honest about me. I'm also supposed to tag 7 people to follow suit. I'll see if I can come up with that many! So here we go!

1. I'm bi-sexual. Honest to goodness. Everyone in my family knows, well at least kind of. I don't think I've ever come out and said to Jason's family (hi Marian and Audra!) and I KNOW I've never come out and said it to my mom (hi Mom!). I've dated men and women. I've been in caring and devoted relationships with men and women.

2. Angelina Jolie, to me, is the sexiest person on the planet. Johnny Depp is right there with her. Mmmmm mmmmmm. By the way, it's not just their looks that make them sexy. It's their attitudes, their behaviors. I feel that they are as true to their selves, their actual, grew up in hicksville selves as they can be given what they do for a living. I don't blame them one bit for not living full time in the states.

3. I hate James' middle name, I always have. It's Harold by the way. When Homer and I were picking out names for James, he got to choose the middle name. My choices to choose from were Larz (the drummer/guitarist/someone from Metallica), Wolf (cause he liked wolves) or Harold (which was his best friend at the time's given name, that he never used by the way). Given those choices, I picked the most "normal" one. When Jason adopts James, James has decided he would like his middle name to be Robert. Oh, and I wanted to call him Jamie or Jimmy, but again, Homer said NO. Grrr that man!

4. If Jason and I are blessed with another baby, we will name that baby Max. Maxwell David for a boy or Maxine Audra for a girl. I really like the sound of Izzy and Max together. However, given our traumatic history over the past year and a half, we doubt it will happen.

5. I got married on Friday the 13th. It has been the best day of my life since.

6. Jason is a great man. He likes to grumble and put on the appearence that he is angry and cranky, however all I have to do is make a funny face at him and he is all smiles. I'm definately the opptimist to his pessimist.

7. I'm going to paint my office purple. Even though I share the room with Jason, it's where the computer is, I'm painting it in the palatte of MY choice. Jason has agreed and really doesn't care as long as it isn't pink with green polka dots.

8. I'm all done Christmas shopping. I'm VERY happy about that. Now we can focus on other stuff all month long. I was able to accomplish the gift shopping along with paying the bills. Woohoo!

9. We don't celebrate Christmas on Christmas day. In fact, we order Chinese Food and watch movies all day, going no where and doing nothing else. I let the kids open the stuff in their stockings and ONE gift from under the tree. Otherwise they have to wait for Katy to be here AFTER Christmas. I'm evil like that, I know. Oh, I often take them shopping with me, so they have a good idea of what they are getting AND we don't believe in Santa, the Tooth Fairy, or the Easter Bunny.

10. I'm a Mt. Dew addict. I love the stuff. My day just isn't complete with out it. Don't get me wrong, I have come to really enjoy a good cup of coffee, however there is nothing like cracking open a Mt. Dew to help get me going. We drink it from the can, because I have been known to leave partially empty cans all over. Can you imagine how much would go to waste if we used bottles?

Now for those I'm going to tag. I hope I can come up with 7!

Mrs. G at Derfwad Manor
Brandi at My Mountain Morning
Nikki at The Martin Family
Liz at From Somewhere near Mt. Laundry
Meg at Life and Love in Our Home
Rambleman at Rambleman
Aimee at Momzoo

Sunday, December 7, 2008

I Laughed my Ass Off

I really laughed my ass off at this video, however, it's VERY VERY true. Enjoy.

See more Jack Black videos at Funny or Die